who knew

Listening to that song brings me back to the days in secondary school.

I'd give anything to go back to the days in sjc. So what if it's a lousy school which is full of lesbians? That's the place where I found my close friends, where I led my life in a carefree manner and I had almost nothing to worry about. Those were the days where I could go literally crazy: running and screaming my lungs out in the school compound and no one cares. Running from the highest level all the way to the canteen right after the last lesson before recess so we don't have to waste our time to queue for the food.

And and, staying up with the emos at the round round sofa to 4am just to listen to the song '4 in the morning' HAHAHA. A pity that the round round sofa is gone):


Life's so different now. Sigh.

blinded by the white light

Heard that people from other JCs are looking forward to As.

Oh my gosh oh my gosh.
I'm feeling nervous and afraid.
Shoo, distractions. You aren't supposed to be here with me during this period.

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Déjà vu

In your dream, sitting on your bed.

You: I love you.
Me: How much?
You: Words cannot express how much I love you.
Me: Then you show me la!
After showing,
Me: -_-

After typing it out it doesn't seem funny at all.
But acting that scene out just now made the both of us laughed like mad, till I fell off from my bed while laughing. HAHA.

Don't worry I won't forget that scene! :D



I suddenly remember about the waistbone thing also!! HAHAHAHA.

untitled

Tuition tomorrow.
Means I have to complete the essay by today!! ):
Chem paper looks so much more attractive than an essay.
Sighhhhh.

I had a pleasant surprise because I had magnum ice cream today! Hahahaha reminds me of the selangor trip - eating a total of 6 magnum ice cream and gained 2.5 kg after the trip!

I'm going to upload a photo soon, one that is capable of making anyone laugh like crazy (proven). It's both a good and bad thing to me. Feels kind of comforting to know that I'm making my loved ones so happy, but at the expense of myself. Hahaha.



To my gayxzxz,
Really? Burger's not Chinese? And let's go eat durian soon! :D

chinese hamburger

Talked to my gayzxzxz on the phone for 4 hours yesterday.
Stuffs like bra-burning feminists, how many types of flavour of - available are discussed in our conversation yesterday. HAHAHA. I love talking to her about stupid stuffs!
lUrbBe eUu dIp DiP w0rhx<3

(Don't kill me when you see the title for this post!)

Hehehehe

You never fail to laugh at me whenever I'm with you.
Amazed at how you managed to mimic the 3 stupid actions that i did all at the same time just now!

But the day where i'll see sunlight reflecting off your head is nearing!
See who laugh at who more when that day comes! :D

shoo haze shoo

I hope the chrysanthemum tea I've just made isn't as bad as the ginger tea, or rather, ginger water, that I'd made for you last year.

Good luck! HAHAHA.

The thought of the taste of ginger water is kinda traumatising. I wonder how you wanted to drink the entire bottle before I stopped you, seriouslyyyy.

I love your smile too(:

my sabf's day

Happy Birthday(:

Lessons learnt from today;
1. Pigs can fly! (From the card(: )
2. You thought one year has only 10 months and that yesterday was the 17th month until I corrected you :p
3. My sister chases people out of the room by farting!

Must love your present (not the one that weighs 500g(: ) even if whatever I've stated in the card happens to your present instead okay):


Oh ya! Remember the bet you lost when we were walking to the bus stop in the afternoon? HEHEHEHE(:

bittersweet moment

I have no idea what the previous post was about actually.
(I wasn't the one who posted that. Hehehe)


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I guess everything I'm going through is worth it after all.
Though it hurts really badly deep inside, but I've gotten what I wished for.

You must have felt it a million times worse, but you still put on a brave front in front of me because you know that if you fall, I'll fall even harder. At least I know I'm not fighting this battle alone, and that we'll work through it together(:

And yes, I promise I won't consume any cold drinks, yoghurt, ice cream or yakult for a week monthly, and I'll eat my meals regularly, in exchange for all the Magnum ice creams which you promised you'll get for me! :D

mind reader

(:

case closed

I feel happy!

Cuz I finally have a photo that I'm satisfied with after a long long time and it shall be my phone wallpaper for a long long time! :D



(I just realised I typed this post on 10th october 2010 at 10pm!)

tik tok

2.5 more weeks left of formal education!

Yay. No more waking up at 6am in the morning, begging for 5 more mins to sleep before being dragged out of my cosy little pink bed.

Can't wait.

I'm desperate for more sleep, even I already spend most of my time in lalaland when I'm at home.



Random: I need my panadol):
INFER. (:

Save me

Endure.

It will be over soon.

pillow and meatballs

Went to Ikea today!
THEY DON'T SELL CURRY PUFFS ANYMORE):
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, 10 MEATBALLS FOR $4 ON TUESDAY. TILL 11 JULY 2011. Hehehehe.
Hope I love my new cheapo pillow!

Can't believe a guy can shop for girls' clothes better than I do):

Time flies though.
I'm missing you already.
):

pink

IKEA TOMORROW!! ♥♥♥

I was so excited that that's the first thing that came to my mind when I woke up today.

CAN'T WAIT:D:D:D

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HAHAHAHA.

that patriotic ball

SO CUTE.
HAHAHA.

not a good sign

Am I expecting too much, or are you just giving too little?

I think I lead a sad life and have a very very low non-material standard of living.

):

the apocalypse

In the midst of Prelims.
Really can't wait to get out of this shit.

But I'm going to get into another one 2 months later.
2 more months to prepare, that's short.

I guess I'm still using my butt to think.
Both words that I've spoken and written are full of crap.

It's going downhill.

beleaf.

Interesting facts about August 2010;
There are 5 Sundays, 5 Mondays and 5 Tuesdays all in one month.
And it happens once every 823 years.

with the rubiks cube

(:

eunuciate. hahaha

I'm so in love with minions now!
If only such thing exists in reality):

Okay, I have a new goal in life now.
I WANT TO LOSE 2 MORE KG! SO THAT I CAN HAVE MY SEOUL GARDEN BUFFET.
The faster the better! Guess it'll take me at least 2 weeks because it's only healthy to lose 0.5kg - 1kg per week. Sounds kinda ironic right? I'm trying to lose weight so that I can go for a buffet. LOL.

For PE, I jogged 15 rounds today! Which is equivalent to 4.5km:D But, I think I gained it all back by eating approximately 5 times the amount of rice I usually ate of FRIED rice just now. ):

My eyes are blood-shot now):
I'm switching back to spects till after As. YAY.

sweet goodbye

Farewell ceremony for the J2 fencers today.
I guess today was one of the rare times to see Grace go really crazy. I competed with Wenrui to see who could finish the swiss roll in one bite (mine's smaller than his somemore!), he won and I screamed and started jumping around, in the canteen! Sorry Avril, I made you lose the bet): And it's my first time seeing sperm and condom soft toys too! Never knew such things actually existed. HAHAHA.

My attendance is 82%. HAHAHA. Means no more going to that shitty place to train and face those shitty people who have those shitty faces anymore! YAY:D


What made my day in the morning was the sweet dream I had:D
Felt so nice, so happy, to be inside that dream(:
PS: I wasn't surrounded by food in my dream! HAHAHA.

free fall

"DESPICABLE ME" IS SO CUTE.
Yes, I spelled and pronounced it correctly this time round(:

Agnes and those tiny yellow bald/little hair bespectacled minions! Especially the one that drank the anti-gravity potion and has been floating in outerspace ever since then HAHAHA.

Consumed lots of fattening food again. Addicted to the nice milk tea and ate fried sushi and Shilin chicken! I love fried sushi, and this post will serve as a reminder for myself that I already have a guinea pig to try my food when I make fried sushi on my first attempt! :D


Sigh, I still have shitloads of homework to complete.

your faithful listener

Seems like none of them remembers the significance of 11th July.
Why should I bother when no one cares right? I guess that is already a thing of the past, a date that it's not worthy of being remembered.

Nevertheless, I still spent my day fruitfully. Starting from the 2-hour hardcore Chemistry tuition in the afternoon, to eating cheeseburger, drinking milkshake, getting laughed at and being drawn on in the evening(:

Feel like watching World Cup Finals later, but I doubt I'll survive through tomorrow, to make things worse, there is four more days of school after Monday! ):

it comes naturally

4 movies in 2 weeks:D
$24 to train my stomach muscles, hopefully all the fats situated inside my stomach will ridiculously pop out from my belly.

I NEED TO STOP EATING SO MUCH FATTENING FOOD):


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HAHAH I sound like the green guy! Just that I have much more hair on my head!

your unconditional love

Sigh, my right side of the throat is still burning. Painnnn. Irritating, it makes me being unable to eat my food or swallow my saliva in peace.

Oh, and I tried to run today.
I guess my stamina deteriorated like mad because half the time I was walking! ):

But I guess I won't really run much because there's neither NAPFA nor army to motivate me to run! :D

Sigh, school term will be officially starting soon, means lesser time for leisure activities):


SATAY IS BACK HOME. YUMYUMYUM.

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(:

uni-president

Guess I'm PMS-ing nowadays. I get annoyed at the slightest things! And pimples outbreak. Sucks to be a girl.

I so don't look forward to PE next week): It's been one month plus since I exercised, excluding running for the buses part! If not the last time since I ran was like a few days ago.

I wanna watch more movies and buy more milktea! "Knight And Day" was nice, except that I went out of the cinema feeling extremely confused with what's going on in the movie): "Despicable Me", "Hot Tub Time Machine" and "Eclipse"! HAHAHA.


The ding dong song inside my head now-.-

over it

Okay, one more paper before MYE is over.

I was late for Chemistry paper, find myself amazing that I could find the stamina to run up the stupid slope up the school. That slope may seem harmless, but when you run up, it kills!
Econs, I hope I can pass. I really tried my best to vomit out everything and crap nonsense):

I haven't really started studying Math yet! ):
DIEEEEE.

I'm already thinking of what to do during the long weekend):

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Hahaha.

potential thief

Enraged.

Okay, I've just decided to be more civilised and not use vulgarites here.
Even though I'm very tempted to.
I might just scream vulgarities at that person's face please.

Can't believe this type of people exist.


#$^%&*@"#%
I NEED TO EAT SOMEONE NOW.

history

I was browsing through some photos, and then I realised how stupid I was in the past.
Hahaha, can't believe I hid behind Avril last time, even though the attempt to hide failed big time.

To think I was so devoted to NPCC in the past - Even though I sprained my ankle just 3 days right before the annual uniform group camp, I hid my injury from my parents because I was afraid that they didn't allow me to attend the camp. Am I crazy or what, seriously.

Was selected to be the emcee for atc. Even though I embarrassed myself big time that day, I'm glad that my partner and my 2 seniors who were in-charge of the campfire event saved the day for me. Kind of miss those 2 seniors, a pity that I do not talk to them anymore.

But yeah, everyone moves on with life.
Just that my life is a little more screwed now because there's so much more shit to study for A levels.

like the beginning

Grace is a happy red pig today HAHAHA.

My face shows signs that the skin is going to peel very very soon):

I ate a lot a lot of chocolate today. fattening):




(:

the issue on trust

Trusting people is too difficult.
To confide in people with all your darkest secrets, or to trust that someone will not do anything "illegal" behind your back. Either way, it is still difficult.

I really hope that everything is really coincidental.
But is it too much of a coincidence already?

You know, the thought of that weighing on my mind all day long is plain annoying.

an increase in entropy

HELLO.

YOU'RE DAMN ADORABLE:D

HAHAHA.

OKAY BYEBYE(:

a new hideout

Oh my gosh, I dreamt that I was 54kg after the June holidays and I was wondering how the hell did I manage to gain 7kg-.- (I'm still lighter than 47kg in real life! For now. Hahaha.) And the thought of losing those extra fats turned me off.

I hope my dream won't come true this time round LOL.

first ones to jump in line

It has been 13 hours.
I'm tired and my eyes are really red, but I'm still waiting.

Feeling scared, worried, whatsoever.
Where are you? ):

read my lips

"Often we find ourselves moving on, but wanting to go backwards in time. We find comfort in what we’ve done in the past, and although we’re enjoying the present, we can’t stop thinking about how amazing the past was and how much we’d give to be able to go back. We want to make the best of now, but we just can’t seem to let go of the past. I guess looking back on the past is okay, but we should never live in the past. Always make the best of today, because someday, today will become part of your past too."

Wow this makes sense.

best friends

The older you get, the toughter it is to lose weight, because by then your body and your fats are really good friends.

Haha. So I should stop procrastinating and start exercising soon!
Especially my brain fats for the next 3 weeks-.-

I'm blistered but I'm better

There are so many stars shining in the sky tonight.
Do you still remember those days where we used to lie beside each other and watch the stars?

Those days are worth being missed.

10 key ways to truly love

1. Listen without interrupting.
2. Speak without accusing.
3. Give without sparing.
4. Pray without ceasing.
5. Answer without arguing.
6. Share without pretending.
7. Enjoy without complaint.
8. Trust without wavering.
9. Forgive without punishing.
10. Promise without forgetting.

pull me in deeper

How do you know if your boyfriend/girlfriend really loves you:
If your boyfriend/girlfriend doesn't mind you flicking nose shit on him/her and then wipe your dirty fingers on his/her clothes HAHAHAHAA.

Yes, I'm finding that type of boyfriend HAHAHAHAH.


Just kidding, I'm not that disgusting(:

the seemingly non-existent ring

Why do people only realise that something is important after he or she loses it?
When you yearn for something else so much, that doesn't imply that you should neglect what you have now.

Sucks to be taken for granted, that one's effort wasn't appreciated.
You don't wanna lose anything precious to you, do you?

the trip feels so long

I stare up at the stars,
I wonder just where you are,
you feel a million miles away.


Wondering how are you doing now, whether you've eaten till your stomach is about to explode or whether you've been bitten by crocodiles. I'm wondering what you're wondering now.

What an unpleasant feeling when both of you are away at the same time):

ironic twist

I don't know whether this is a good thing or a bad thing.
Maybe I should just let nature takes its course.

Oh well, MYEs are nearing.
I don't want history to repeat itself by failing almost all my subjects again.

save me

The more I read that paragraph in your blog, the more I feel that what I'm thinking now is what you were thinking when you typed that.

If that's really the case, I really hope you will.

caught in a dream

I wish I could sleep more (literally), I'm really tired.

"it's eating me inside,
it's burning me alive."

closer to the truth

That's what you get when you let your heart win.

Now, can you hear mine breaking?

a shooting star

Nostagia: A wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life.

suffocation

Note to self:

my saving grace

I feel like i've gotten possessed by some devil in the morning.
Sigh.

Nevertheless, on the whole, today's still a good day, and chemistry spa is over! YAY.

may day

We have thousand and one unglam shots that day!

Group shot! :D




I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

trying

In my dream, we were so fine.

nothing left to say

Spending the weekends, alone, at home, is hellish.
The 4-hour Chemistry tuition later is going to make it worse.

you're with me now

I should try chilling already.
Because if I don't, I'll die of heart disease sooner or later.


One week seems so near yet so far.

far from ideal

Enjoying these days while it last.
It's slowly getting better.

hello mr whitey

I ate excessive amount of food yesterday! I'm so going to grow fat): Satay, satay beehoon, stingray, 1 big cup of sugarcane, fried sotong, yoghurt! So much till we had not enough cash and need to draw money! Yummy yummy. So fun! I know my way to SP already(:

Sigh. I wanted to shit when I was at Clementi in the afternoon today.
Yet, when I reached home 7 hours later, I lost the inspiration to shit and I still haven't shit yet! ): I can feel the shit piling up inside my large intestines already!

I managed to run away from refereeing today!!
The thought of never going to refeering again is so :D:D:D
But I wasted 9 hours of my life today. Travelling from school to Clementi twice, and from Clementi back to school twice.

I feel that Singapore should increase the price of COE!
There are way too many cars on the road already! Damn pissed off. I went to the bus stop which i can take 2 buses back to school, thinking that I would reach school earlier. Then 2 156 went past me (156 doesn't stop at the bus stop I was at). Then, when I board 154, THERE'S TRAFFIC JAM. SIGHHH. So instead of taking 30 min to travel back, I took twice that amount of time to travel the same distance. Bad decisions made-.- So annoyed till I refused to talk to anyone for a while.

Nevertheless, I enjoyed today despite being made fun of for at least 3 times in an hour! Very fun to laugh at me meh! ):

Happy:D:D

No matter what, I'm going to shit before fencing tomorrow!!

what's importance?

A divs individual over for me.

Hahahah, I'll never run away from injuries.

Feeling literally breathless while fencing all the time, I guess the rest thought I was having asthma or something, abrasion on my right foot, and having a bump on my left knee after falling down on the piste. I got all those on today!

Damn excited for the sabre guys and the epeeists and foilists! :D
Oh mann, looks like I can't run away from refereeing tomorrow! ):


What's the feeling of being lied to, even if it's just a harmless white lie?
And,
the feeling of being a second-class people sucks.

melancholy pill

In exactly one week later, woman's sabre individual A divs will be over. I hope nothing goes wrong and we'll fence our best!

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It's kinda amazing how one can hop from one to another so quickly, how much lies can one say to another and how can one act so naturally and show 'genuine' concern for another.

This showed me how scary humans can be, how cruel they are and how heartless they can be. It sort of made me lose faith in these people. But oh well, I guess there are exceptions right? I hope you'll prove me right, that this world is not entirely made up of vicious people. (:

help

I don't know how did I manage to dream of that which annoys me to the max, so annoyed that I managed to wake up from my sleep and I'm still annoyed.

What a way to start my day.

inextricably linked

39.3 degrees, throat inflammation, etc.
Sucks to be sick.
It made me lose my appetite and my voice.
I'm so going to Seoul Garden after I recover! Can't wait! :D

my cute little toilet bowl

If only I can shit out 2kg worth of shit.

My ct results are.. shitty. Oh well.
Quite saddening even though I have expected it and I know I deserved that kind of crap results.
Sigh.

thanks for the memories

Sigh I'm really missing the Selangor trip now. Despite gaining a few pimples, gaining more weight, getting abrasion at the knee-cap from doing punishment, sleeping very late and waking up at 6am, it's really nice spending time with the fencers.

On the first night, we can see a half-naked guy from another room on the same level in my room and everyone got so excited about it. HAHAHA. Oh, excluding me because I'm not interested at all! Sneaking out of the hotel to go to the 7-11 just beside the hotel after lights out was fun. It's worth risking getting punishment to buy more Magnum ice-cream!

At the shopping centre, Avril dropped a coin and she was determined to find it. So she bent under the table to search for it but couldn't find it. Then 5 minutes later while walking around in the shopping centre she suddenly felt something insider her shoe and she imagined a cockroach inside her shoe. She was freaked out and when she took it out, it was her coin! HAHAHA.

Then at third night, Soong Teck was telling us ghost stories in my room. "Don't anyhow say hello when you hear something. If you said hello and that thing replies what you going to do?" While we were thinking, something in dark colour suddenly walked in and Avril and I screamed! Turned out to be Parveena and we ended up laughing like some mad women!

Priscilla and the kettle incident! Priscilla complained to the receptionist that her kettle was rusty, so she changed her kettle thrice and each time the kettle was more rusty, so she ended up taking back the first kettle that she had and boil water the whole day! We're damn bad la, made fun and laughed at her. And I guess our laughter was too audible that people 3 rooms away can hear us. So we ended up doing 100 push-ups the next day for gathering after lights out.

Both Avril and I saw a nymph in the bathroom and it scared the hell out of Parveena. Parveena desperately trying to run out of the room but Soong Teck kept blocking the door and she kept screaming like mad and pinched Soong Teck's butt. Finally found someone who was more afraid of cockroaches than me! Avril and I just stood there laughing at both of them!

Sabrers played poker on the last night and the forfeit was the best! Acting spastic, BBC, the Romanian guy and the shalala guy! That's the best skit ever. The whole fencing team laughed like crazy!

Oh, then on the last day, everyone in my room (7 of us), except me, woke up to Avril's alarm! Everyone was getting ready to run out because they thought it was the fire alarm. I'm the only one who was still sleeping like a pig.

Everyday laughed like crazy! Oh well, the trip is a once-in-a-lifetime experience. The whole fencing team will not go overseas for fencing-related stuffs anymore.

3 more weeks to A Divs!

reality

Back from Selangor trip!

I think I'm very injury-prone.
Who will actually suffer from (not very but still) severe abrasion by doing 100 push-ups at one shot? Hahahaha.

It is extremely pain, the stinging pain, just like when you put salt onto the mouth ulcer. Ouch, the yellow liquid is still flowing out of the swollen wound.

Oh well, now we're back to reality. No more staying up late at night to laugh our asses off, till we get punished the next day, no more eating instant noodles at night, no more breakfast buffet and no more buying 3 ice-creams per day because the magnum ice cream there is S$1.50 only! HAHAHA I'M SO GOING TO GROW FAT.

It felt nice to skip school on the first day of the term! And, there's school later! ): all my homework are not done yet!

Yet, it still feels great to be back in Singapore. No more so far yet still so far feeling anymore:D

Untitled

Okay the Internet connection in this hotel sucks. It doesn't allow me to use the internet sometimes despite trying for 45min and still failed. Yep fencers surprised me with a cake in the afternoon, luring me out of the hall by saying they wanna take group photo and I stupidly believed. But thanks! You guys officially made me fat by forcing me to eat so much. Okay 2 more days before I'm heading back to Singapore. I really can't wait to get back):

I think I dreamed you into life

Went on a food hunt just now. Putting something you like back onto the shelf because of the amount of calories was so.... ): But I still bought $10 worth of food and my backpack is filled with nothing but food! Woo, I feel prepared for night time for the next 4 nights! HAHA.

I think I've been spending money like water these few days. I ought to learn how to save money again before I burn a big hole in my pocket.


Will be in Selangor, but I'll be back in 5 days time! Can't wait! :D
I'll miss you guys):

you got that extraordinary way

"EH I SEE A VERY BRIGHT STAR!"
'It's an aeroplane.'
"OH. I KNEW IT!"

Hahaha dumb dumb! (:


Grace feels very happy today!
I did not eat cotton candy even though I was at newyorkx2 and now I'm craving for it. Wasted!


“Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.”

(:

burned every bridge

For the first time, I had so much time for both math and econ papers despite maintaining at a very slow speed throughout the papers. This shows how much I have screwed the common tests up.

I'm left with the freaking chem paper!
And obviously I'm not making today productive because I can't concentrate at all.

SIGH. ):

cut it out

This week happens to be the period of the month I dislike most.
I don't want anymore frequent emotional rides):

I should be drowning myself with work now.
Because common tests are just next week and I barely started studying.

Night study was cool because it was air-conditioned and I had the perfect view yesterday. AHAHA:D

red spectacles

LOL.

24 story love affair

My eyes are bloodshot now, it's either due to the contact lens or insufficient sleep. I'd prefer the latter though, shows that I'm a true pink pig. Haha.

Today's training was quite slack. Compare to the trainings we had one year ago, the trainings we are having currently won't even be considered as official trainings back then. It used to be way more torturous. Fencing pt, 5 rounds for warm-up, other stuffs, then 5 rounds for cool-down. Lol, the thought of that made me feel that I'm much fitter in the past.

1 more month to Selangor trip, and they extended it to 5d4n? This sucks. 1.5 more months to A Divs and woohoo, no more official fencing trainings!

School life is getting more boring. All we do is to gossip about others and rant like shit. Pig-headed, double-standards, hypocrites, or people whom I/we just can't see eye-to-eye to. I feel like I'm going to explode someday. Controlling the emotions well will be almost impossible for someone who can never hide her feelings successfully.

Okay time to sleep. Time to join the pigs in lalaland(:

The wonders of mathematics

a lot(:

climb the walls

I can't wait to chop off my freaking long hair!
Hopefully my balding problem will stop and the classroom will be more hair-free.

I want my Ikea meatballs. The juicy chewy meatballs.
Feel damn fat. I eat much more, exercise lesser and shit lesser compared to last time.

Oh, 8 more coach trainings to A divs! LALALA. No more big black bag to carry next time!

elated

I feel so sinful. I just spammed my mouth with lots and lots of prawn rolls.

Chinese New Year is boring. Though I get to eat lots of bwa kwa (which means I'm growing fat for sure), I saw quite a few unfamiliar faces and they happened to be my cousins. Hahaha. At least it's sort of over, fortunately.

Marina Barrage today! Pinic = food. The thought of food makes me happy already! My stomach was bombarded with lots of grapes, sour grapes, just now. Because I kept losing in some game. Lost 22 and won 4? That's how sucky I am in the game. Hahaha.

Sigh, back to school tomorrow. I will miss sleeping for 12 hours.

a roller-coaster ride

It's so hard to love someone properly. It's way harder than what I have imagined it to be, way harder than what anyone can ever imagine.

Everytime something went wrong, all fingers will be pointed at me, and eventually it will be entirely my fault. My fault to care too much, my fault to be over-sensitive. What other faults I have? I bet I have too many till my 2 thumbs, 8 fingers and 10 toes aren't enough to count all.

I need to readjust my priorities in life, so that everything can be in equilibrium. Sucks to be me, sucks to be you too.

How ironic. Honestly, how many nails do I have left?

unprepared

I think I strained my leg muscle while fencing today.

Omg I'm not done with shopping for my cny stuffs.
I'm not done with studying for the chem test (actually I don't intend to study much)
I'm not done with some other stuffs too.
):

we're in this together

If given another chance to choose, anyone could have taken the other path instead.

But the grass will not be greener on the other side all the time.

"Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else. Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices. But the real test is if someone would rather stay with you, even though walking away would be so much easier."

I'll stay, will you?

sweet victory

My morning started out real badly.
I need my happy meal! *Hint* Heh.

But at least we did well in fencing!
2nd for woman's sabre team! Though I fenced like crap during the first two bouts of the finals, so badly that the coach was shouting at me. It's so stressful to be the anchorman, the one who determines whether we win or lose the matches. We still did our best! And I felt so happy hitting the mask when I'm already so short! Hard to get this kind of opportunities.

Female epeeist clinched gold(:
We literally went crazy just now and were feeling extremely high before BBC dampened our mood. Selangor trip, go or not to go?


Okay time to bathe! The last time I bathed was more than 24 hours ago. HAHA.

i'm like a vacuum cleaner

All the unnecessary worries.
They bring nothing but troubles, so I should find a way to stop letting those to haunt me. That's what mental trainings are indirectly for right? Hahaha.

I'm a mental patient indeed.

Time for me to take a nap, to sleep my lousy mood away.

these lips need medication

I'm back home! Feeling extremely tired, even though i fenced 7 times only.

That female referee is seriously damn fucked up. I think any CJ sabrers can be a better referee than her. We had such a fun time bitching about her just now. Think the guys saw the other side of the girls already! HAHA.

So Justin typed a report for all of us, commenting about the way we fenced.

This is so obvious that he's shooting me! I slack a lot meh!
"not to do the same mistake again and as such improving on fencing. This means, DON’T SLACK. *Cough cough at SOMEONE. HAHAHAHAHA."

What he observed about me.
"Oh oh, try to control your emotions after a bout, don’t be so vulgar, it’s scary and so not feminine. Haha."

Everyone was looking at me when I was cursing the referee, hope no one remembers me, and my school.

Omg the nail of the injured big toe is almost detached from my toe!!! Freaking gross.

definition of insanity

I'm an idiot. Haha. Though i did only the first and second steps.

The guys did well during Novices today. Tomorrow will be the girls' turn.
All the best to us.
I hope I won't feel tired tomorrow. ):

crumple into pieces

Novices is just 4 days away. It used to seem so far away, but the next time I'm going to fence will be during the competition itself. What if it is another repetition of what happened during FM Open? Oh man, this sucks. Remind me to sleep at least 10 hours on Saturday night!

I think I'm really pms-ing, my mood has been so lousy nowadays, especially when it's about nothing or stupid reasons. I should stop it before I lose anything dear to me.

Going to school is such a chore for me. I wish I could sleep the whole day, so I'll never feel tired, not facing the teachers with homework not done, etc.

a night to get away

Back from Chemistry tuition.
This is how I feel when faced with Chemistry questions.


I'm eating some chinese herbs that looked like burnt cockroach feelers. Gross, I feel like puking it out but my mum will kill me if I spit it out.

To make myself happier..

Hello Jonathan!
I know you'll read this so I shall remind you that you still owe me a happy meal! :D

This reminds me of you too.


Okay I'm happier already. HAHAHA.


another photo!

LOL.

Annoyed, by everything

Hahaha it's so cool that I'm actually in the PAC while typing this. Damnit it's so freaking boring down here.

trying to find my way

When I want fencing trainings, they're cancelled. When i am so reluctant to go for fencing trainngs, all the compulsory trainings suddenly appear. This is so irritating.


Jap buffet today! Such a pity that it lasted only for 50 min and we didn't have the time to try the ice cream. Had problem finishing all the food by 5 and I was being challenged to finish my bowl filled with food, so I'm going to get my 3 yoghurt tomorrow as my reward! :D (Even though I got caught for burning one that I was supposed to eat by 5 and was called dumb cause I want to bluff my way also can't bluff properly)

I still feel full now! ):

remember that one day

Even through the hard times
We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that I’m yours
And that your mine
That’s how we got this far
Let’s never be apart
I’m here for you
Cuz you’re my everything

What a nice song.
Oh, chemistry tuition was awfully horrible.

so call me your sugar

Alvin and the Chipmunks 2, Theodore is so cuteeee! Hard to be chubby and so well-liked by everyone at the same time !

And today's the first time I understand what's being taught during physics lecture! Feel so proud of myself. HAHAHA. I got tricked twice into believing that my belongings were missing, tricked by two different people at two different places somemore.

Laughing through your nose afer eating egg plus onion is cool. LOL.


OMGGGGG, I realised I have arenes tutorial to be done by tomorrow 8am just 5 minutes ago! Need to do MJC paper too. CRAPPPP.

staring at the broken door

It's only the third day of school and I feel so exhausted already.
Lack of sleep. 6 hours, as compared to the 11 hours I slept during school holidays.
Had pe today, then fencing pt. Ran like crazy (okay not really, but it's considered a lot to me!)

Gained back all the calories I burned by eating one big bag of peanut sweets. Sigh, if only eating helps me to lose weight.


I applaud you for being a two-faced, oh wait i mean three-faced, person. Not many people are capable of being like you. Aren't you proud of it? Hahaha. Obviously I won't waste my energy on it if I can foresee that I will achieve nothing at the end of the day. It's not as if you'll really care anyway. In conlusion, I just hope you'll stop your nonsense.

straight from the heart

Today is still a good day, even though I
- woke up quite early in the morning,
- eat A LOT,
- didn't manage to complete my homework,
- kept using wrong words like "I use my eyes and poke you!" and then got laughed at,
- got tricked into believing that my yoghurt was spoiled and was laughed at again after a few mouthfuls of my yoghurt entered someone else's stomach!


SIGH, THERE'S SCHOOL TOMORROW. THERE'S PE TOMORROW.
LIFE SUCKS.

save me

When things do not turn out the way you desire.

everything's gonna be alright

http://ipokeyouwithmysabre.tumblr.com/

Haha sounds like a really cool blog url to use right? Maybe I'll really consider using that, but that will mean I'll leave this 5-year-old blog.

Later in the day there's fencing training, so I'll be having breakfast at 9.40am. I'm so looking forward to breakfast because I'm feeling extremely hungry (again). My life seems quite closely associated with fencing now. And it seems like this will continue till June? I hope the teachers are just scaring us about the June part seriously.

Sigh, school's starting next monday. Life will suck if there's fencing training, and it'll suck even more if there's both pe and fencing training on the same day.

don't cut me down just yet

Wooo. My left thumb was hit by the sabre during training. So now my left thumb and my biggest left toe are injured. With muscle aches. (I remember what the happy meal thing is about already!)

Then, I tried doing chemistry homework. 10 multiple choice in 2 hours, LOL. Not bad for someone who never pass chemistry in J1 before and never touch it since I-don't-know-when right?

It's night time now! Which means I'm feeling hungry and have weird food cravings.
After training was: chicken, bwa kwa, green tea and bubble tea.
Now: Ikea meatballs!, chompchomp stingray!, casurina prata!, satay also can! Yummy.


If things end this way, it's such a sucky ending. What a way to start the new year huh.

behind the facade

For situations to be ideal, there must be assumptions.
And because these assumptions don't exist together, it's called reality.

where the fields are green

HAPPY NEW YEAR:D

Okay now I can take my time to blog about the day.

I spent my last moment of 2009, and the very first moment of 2010 with Avril! Amazingly, my parents allowed her to sleepover at my place. Went to buy food at night, and Avril wanted to try jumping shots. So we jumped from 1.30am to 2am under some void deck! Oh, I went literally crazy at 12.39am! I was damn happy at that time! HEHEHE.

Slept at 6am (Avril was still singing some song right before sleeping), woke up at 10am, and woke up 3 times in between too. And i still manage to last till now!

Then in the day, I was at Parkway Parade with Avril and Jonny! Enjoyed walking from IJ KC to ECP to PP. Went Cotton On then purposely went to the lingerie section. HAHA. I tried to act like chinese zombie by having a tissue paper stuck on my face, then hop around with my hands up in public too. Went Giant to look and I somehow separated myself (went to the food section actually) from them while they were talking, seems like what a 3-year-old kid!

Ahhh, my right eye is feeling extremely sore now): A sign for me to stop blogging and go to sleep. Goodnight!