went science centre today. i agreed with iris. it's BORING. next, went to my cousin's house. found out that she's 29 years old. so old. that means when she was 15 then i was borned. her house is so nice! ate alot of rou gan and chocolates. i'm going to grow fat real soon. went home, 6of my family members plus the maid sat in my cousin's husband the 4 seats car. it's soo quezy. felt car sick too. +o( it took like only 30mins from jurong east travel to hougang. that's like so fast..

today, went to dhoby ghaut. there brought me so much memories i had with the seniors.. haiz. especially the mrt that ben dan incident. lol. went to ps carrefore. bought nothing there. anyway, i went with my family. saw my brother and his girlfriend while walking to centrepoint. then my mother din't notice it at first. then when she realised, they were like gone until don't know where. my mother intended to chase them. but my father said no. ha. centrepoint.. it's so deserted there. that reminded me of bangkok that particular shopping centre too.. haiz. i still miss bangkok. then in the end, went to phonix hotel to eat. yumyum, it's nice. my weight gonna be nice too.. had yu sheng. the people there so nice. their service is excellant. then they helped us do the yu sheng, pour the pepper, honey and all these stuffs. then explained to us why they put that for. and honey is for love and romance. then my brother was like so the paying attention to it. haha. yeah. the food is nice, the bills also very nice. everything is just too nice. went home at 10.25pm like that. so sleepy. going science centre tomorrow! yay. i gonna top science. haha.

i only got $50 from my maternal relatives.. -.-" so little.. nevermind. anyway it's still put in the bank. so got and don't have its still the same. i had an unhappy chinese new year this year. just because of some things.. haiz.. forget it. i'm sleepy. nights..

just created my class blog. haha. it's a bit lame. http://2faith-ians.blogspot.com/. had my renuion dinner. ate the most crabs. yum yum.. stayed at home the whole day. din't do much. was on the computer for like the whole day.

went cp after school with avril and sharmaine. went kfc for lunch. they had the 2pc chicken meal. while i had the shrooms meal. so kind of avril to give me her whipped potato. then when avril eating the chicken, the chicken fly out of her mouth. haha. after that, went to roam abit then went to sculpture park. me and avril can climb the balls successfully. except sharmaine. she was like trying all ways to climb up the ball. then i went to climb the brown sculpture. got 1 damn boastful girl. purposely went to my that sculpture to tell her friend that she want to climb so loudly can. then when we going to the round round thing me and sharmaine were like talking so loud indirectly insulting her. haha. hope she know it's she. then went to sit the balls again. got 2 cvps girls walk past me. then sharmaine said they were laughing at me. then later got another person was also like laughing at me. -.-" went back cp to take bus. saw melanie when i was in the bus. avril said that got 1 girl was like pointing and waving at her. then avril dont know what to do so call me. avril still thought she's crazy. haha. then im pig see, sharmaine is pig tan, avril is pig sheck. YAY. haha. pig see sounds the nicest. YAY.

i'm very very tired. eyes are closing soon. but what to do. tomorrow got maths test. how. but i want to sleep! zzz. npcc day parade. should i be interested in it or should i not be. got disadvantages and advantage which is to get cca points. yay. shall end now.

nothing much during school. except that i was soooo tired during science, was not even listening to what ms lee talking. then when she gave us a 5min break. me and marcelle really slept. until when someone woke marcelle up. then marcelle woke me cos ms lee starting lesson. walau. i just entered into my dream lor. haha. so fun. sleeping in lesson time. after school, joined cecelia and other sec2s. after that played bball. i was like so sway. got 2 bungs came to join us. so altogether got 6 people. and i was in the 2 bungs that group. hehe. i din't even really play. can't be bothered. then throughout the whole game we kept on laughing. susanna so poor thing. kanna accidentally slapped and accidentally tripped by someone. haha. wow. i'm having fun tying 120 bowlines.

is it my fault. scolding the maid whose attitude is like when you call her to answer so many times and she din't even answer you once. she think that by not answering can don't care everything. in the end i got scolded from father for scolding her. why is everything my fault. they can just stop treating me as their daughter since they just care about my studies and give me weekly allowance and doesn't really care about me except for asking me to go home early to be a prisoner. i rather don't have such parents. at least i will have a free life..

yay i'm back. went to sengkang and chengsan library today with marcelle and avril. had a fun time. today recess is so funny lor. i almost choke on my food. thanks to my dear partner, MARCELLE. she made us laughed lor. laugh until her pearl dropped into her pinafore. lala. lessons was as usual, BORING. no one broke mrs lim's vase. it ownself dropped on it's own. and mrs lim was like fuming mad and said she would walked out of the class as she was disgusted by my class performance. then my class was like, walk out better. hahaha.

history test on thursday.. i got a feeling that i will fail it. i already got 5 wrong out of 15. there's 25 questions. and that fill in the blank passage is like so difficult. haiz. anyway, sec1 orientation.. was nice, but was lonely. cynthia was talking to melissa, atiqa was talking to faeezah. and no way i'm talking to my squadmate that her*. after standing for 3 hours, the feeling is so "nice". it's quite nice to have training on almost everyday. at least can occupy me the whole day. so fun. i hope there are like those 72 sec1s who are interested will join np. so cool if all of them join. wonder how are them going to fall in. haha. it's been 1 week. i wasn't getting any much better. i rather wouldn't have known everything and be the happy me than now the suffering in silence me..

i won't be blogging for quite some time. my own computer internet connection flew to don't know where. hence, i got no internet connection upstairs. okay. shall go now. bye.
my inside and outside selfs are totally different...

today, the starting of a new week. the starting of studying. yesterday has passed. 2months.. did i pass those days with it meaningfully or did i waste it. i'm tired. i don't want to think about anything. i want to sleep and forget everything...

shall rewrite on what happened during camp. bleah. miss camp. especially campfire. haiz. first day, we needed to sit down at the ground but got the blue sheet on the floor. so in order to get there we need to step on the muddy grass. so, all sec2s were eee-ing here and there. and of course all of our shoes are dirtied. pitched the tent. put our bags in before GUSTO, section C, proceeded to the river which we need to cross the river by pulling the string. then me and avril were the first to try in my class. din't know i was kicking the water. so the water all splashed on avril. LOL. sorry hor. then cos of that i'm very very dirty. thought by crossing the river my shoes will be cleaner. but it ended up to be dirtier cos all the sand all went in. my track pants was dirty and wet too. after that gusto went to mt. faber safra for the water activies. my class won 2 out of 4 activities. CHEERS! bathed there. wow. there was so clean la. sharmaine said i bathed very fast. thank you thank you. (: but after that, went back costa sands. it rained. so i "bathed" again. at night, night walk cancelled. due to the lightning and the rain. went to the shelter and sit to have muffins for supper. sharmaine was sitting opposite me. then she said the way i eat look very much like a pig. cos. she said. when i stuffing the muffin in my mouth, my eyes were like very big until she also don't know how to immitate. then she laughed at me. so cos she laughed at me i laughed at myself too. then went to the chalet to sleep. cos heavy rain. so can't return to the tent. my bag had a lonely and wet night at the tent. poor thing. second day, woke up at 6.30am. i slept for like 6hours. first time i slept so much in camp. hahaha. stayed in the chalet for like the whole day. but it was fun too. had breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper in the chalet. in the morning, instructor yati, instructor fidah, instructor jason, instructor andrew were entertaining us. that instructor jason quite shuai leh. is only he act until very gay. later you will know why. hahaha. we, the campers, had sabo-ed the male instructors. we had them doing the forfeit like the posts "hot sexy mama" etc, then they also needed to act the "baby baby i love you, will you smile for me" that thing. imagine instuctor jason and instructor andrew acting both the male and the female respectively and vice versa. then i was on the staircase. so i talked to jolene, my classmate, saying that that instructor jason very gay. so loudly can. until instructor jason looked at me. then after that he was like kept looking at me. like giving me the face that he was insulted by me. regretted saying that. so no face. then cos of the heavy downpour, all activities are cancelled. no high and low elements for me. :( at night, CAMPFIRE. i love it so much. though it was indoor. with the campfire projected on the screen. sjcians were so hyper that time. kept cheering non-stop. the atmosphere was so warm. though the temperature was very cold. haha. then after performing, i sprained my ankle. damn pain. but no one came to help me. so PAIN la. still got to ownself walk back to my own seat. must pity me. then after campfire, i was brought to the instructors' room. instructor jasmine put the frozen ice 100-plus bottle on my ankle. that time it's was swollen until like don't know what. then after 1hour of that frozen thingy, my leg was numb. then instructor andrew wanted me to rotate my feet. then when i stop he say i tou lan isit. lol. in the one hour, instructor jason came in. actually that instructor jason quite shuai and not gay at all. christina, i stand on jolene low side, help her match-make you and instructor jason kay. XD. had my supper when i went back my chalet. then everyone was like asking about my leg. bleah. so tired of replying them. actually at night i wanted to play that "baby baby i love you, will you smile for me" but, in the end. cos of my feet, i cannot "seduce" that my friend playing that male lead le. slept at the very edge with the sleeping bag supporting my leg. surprisingly when i woke up i'm still on the bed, din't fell of. but my leg wasn't on the sleeping bag. and yet the sleeping bag is still on the position which i put it on the second night. weird.. cannot be my leg move what. if not i will scream my head off. third day, the day which we were departing costa sands. they had area cleaning. i didn't have. so me and another girl, who had stomach cramps, sat at the hut. then that girl good la. sit at the not dirtied place. then beside her the sit got 1 small white colour patch. i thought is the shelf of the pistachio. when i wanted to swept it off. i realized it's bird shit!! yue ying, how can you shit on there. then my hand is like so SMELLY. it smelled like rotten egg. LOL. my fellow 2faithians had to wash the blue colour sheet and stepped on the muddy grass. while me, i just sit there and do nothing with my legs so clean. i'm like a disabled person. haiz. then after that, went back chalet outside. marcelle and darsheney(don't know how to spell her name. lol) were outside. then we chatted. saw mr pang. so we chatted with him. was talking to him about blah blah blah. then when we saying that blah blah blah coming back, then mr pang used excuses to go back his chalet. lol. like that also can. went to sit at the carpark before we departed costa sands.. had the indivitual best camper class award. that means there were 8 of them. for my class. of course is rachael melanie. she's so enthu. the butterfly of my class too. it's all thanks to her who kept our class' spirits alive. (: cogratulations for group 16 who won the best group award. iris was in group 16. iris, you satisfied not, your name in my blog. and my post is longer than you now. :P went back school with tears on my face, i really miss the instructors. will they be back being our instructors again..? haiz. after returning school like about 1pm, sec2s were supposed to go up gym. but i special, i remained in the canteen. lol. if not i gotta climb the stairs all the way to third floor. by the time i climb up all the sec2s dismissed liao. haha. after that avril passed to me the new telephone web and the new timetable. the timetable didn't change alot. on thursday still got 5lessons of _ _ _'s teachings. after that, i went home by taking a taxi. called my mother to inform her about my sprained ankle. she went home, ate our lunch and went to the chinese doctor. it's PAIN when the doctor pulled my leg. SO PAIN and yet he said it will not be pain. went home and i slept again. -end-

going camp later on. and i haven't even pack finish. i need to sleep. i don't want to think of any more things. can't i just have some peace in my mind. haiz. yesterday, after waking up at 12pm, went shopping with mother at hougang mall, chinatown and eastpoint. that's boring. i rather stay at home and study. lol. bleah. i've got nothing to blog le la. so sleepy now.. shall go now. am i excited to go camp or am i excited to go school.

went compasspoint to buy the things to decorate the class board. spent $3 on it. so i must claim $3 from mrs lim back. must remind me kay. samantha stayed till 4pm to do the board with me. while i stayed until like 4.55pm to finish the whole thing. don't get a shock when you see it kay. it's so messy. but i just can't be bothered. got do can le. later someone nag. then after that went home with cecelia at 5pm after eating lunch.

my brain is SOOOO tired now, after studying maths for 2 whole days. but i haven't even complete the 1st chapter. i do very slow one ma.. maybe later i'm going to complete that chapter. then i no need to sleep for the whole night le. tomorrow when you see a panda in school don't be surprise kay. HAHA. yay. my voice is coming back!! voice, welcome back! tomorrow going to stay back with samantha to do the class board! later someone nag at us again then i sure will have nightmares of her lecturing us.

wth! i just received prank call. which HE said "i am your boyfriend" so many times until i said, "who are you" then he replied "your boyfriend" twice. WALAU. HE VERY IDIOT LEH. IF I ?EVER KNOW HIM, HE GOING TO DIE HORRIBLY!! so much money then waste on food la. no need to prank call me right. waste my precious voice talking to you. SICKENING!

then to one of my damn classmate: stop boasting yourself okay. so you think you very important in the class la. got the post then talk big. if you ever become the montiress, i won't respect you. i doubt any one will respect you too. i've been disgusted by your attitude. you're the first person i ever hated so much. please take a mirror and look at yourself. i'm also very disgusted of how you look like too. you look like a big fat idotic pig. opps. no. pigs are even so much cuter than you. you look like an retarded freak!

okay. i guess that's all. tomorrow i have to wake up at 7.10am again! haiz. i'm so pig and i still need to wake up so early.

i'm so tired yesterday after eating the cough medicine and i slept at 9. 45pm and woke up at 11.35am today. i'm like so pig. but my voice became much better from the monotone voice to back my own voice! yay. only that my voice still disappears at times. i had a dream. i hope it will be real. but i think it will never come true.. had training at 1.30pm. but it still ends at 6.30pm.. after that iris came to talk to me about things. then i talked to her about mine too. nearly cried. went to compasspoint with yue ying later on to eat dinner then jolene came and joined us at macdonalds after we ate finish. roamed abit in compasspoint before going home..

today school time pass really fast! took the weight after recess. which when during recess i ate laksa, drank fruitpunch bubbletea, and drank like 1litre of plain water! WTH. after those then i realize my class need to take height and weight. HUMPH. where got people take after recess one. sickening la. i gained weight. not surprising. but i grew shorter! after half a year, i grew 1cm shorter. what logic is this. tomorrow school dismissal at 12pm. and mrs lim said 2pm. then i said she forgot to see the "1" in front of the "2". then people beside me laughed. i didn't laugh. cos i don't have my voice! i miss my voice... np training today.. I LOVE IT. it's been a long time since i ever like np trainings like today. i like iris's blog song. haha. but it seemed quite old le.. "late at night when all the world is sleeping. i stay up and think of you" quoted from her blog song.

where can i find my voice back. i need it so much. now my voice is like going haywire. school was as usual - boring. after school, went to ask people if anyone can accompany me to somewhere. amanda wong was free! finally. i could only go on today. amanda wong called amanda tong to go too. so we went out of the school. went by the big gate cos i don't want to see someone at the side gate. stupid. make me walk long way. then suddenly amanda wong say she need to buy pe t-shirts, then she needed to go back again. so troublesome. realized the queue was long. so she decided not to buy. went compasspoint to go somewhere else. i'm sleepy.. tomorrow there's training. am i suppose to feel excited or sad? i just don't want to go school. how i wish i could just transfer out of this damn school.

thanks for that mr bean bear karin!! (: i love it! it's so cute! i'm so not used to my sec2 life now. new sec1s. 2D higher mother tongue class. 2E is the sports class. 2F is the best in maths for the others. followed by 2G then 2H. i'm in 2F. my class, filled with all the smart people. competition between me and others are very strong now. i'm so stressed up. if i had known that they sort us by maths results, i won't do well in maths. then at least i will be either in 2G or 2H. it's so much better than my present class! then got 1 particular sec1. cos she avoided me. she influenced me. so i started to avoid her too. i don't know how to face her for the whole year now. went beach road with yue ying after school.. she bought her black socks. so we went to eat the chicken rice set lunch again. don't think there's another time i will eat the chicken rice set lunch there again.. today.. practically like the whole day is the talk about school rules, the don't know what bronze thingy and the camp things. i'm so sick of the camp preparation. especially the group 1 camp leader. people just don't know she sucks so much. just because that she's the leader and she just tell people off for no reason. 9people from 1humilityo5 went to 2faitho6. but 7 out of 9 are people whom i'm not close to. i heard that I WAS TRANSFERRED FROM 2ENDUARANCE TO 2FAITH. oh my. how i wish i'm in 2 endurance. like almost all my good friends are there! i don't want to go school tomorrow. i felt so lost. even in the morning, i don't know who am i going to meet with. no one just know how i feel now.. i don't want to face that sickening form teacher of mine too. simply ordering us around and yet she's not do anything. she is just the next "blah blah blah".

well, i don't have the mood to blog now. but shall just blog to kill my time. school re-opening. wake up especially early to meet people. gotta see all my friends again. i don't feel any excitement in it. then ms tay homework.. i'm not doing it. her dou hou gan, what to learn from that. do also no use. only waste paper, ink, energy, brain cells and time. how i wish it's school holidays and i don't have to meet my friends. i feel so lost within my cohort friends. haiz. i've been thinking about last year's memories. it seemed so nice. will i get it back this year. but i think it's impossible...
i'm confused now. don't ask me why.

2006. everything changed. i'm so not used to it. haiz. my eyes are tired. shall take a rest now...