today is the last training of the year. it's a bad one. wasn't feeling happy in the afternoon. i broke down during training. they just don't understand the people in display felt. other people may think that display very slack, despise those people who are in display. unless they really go through it then know that it's not slack at all? for the whole 2 hours in the morning, tried to tie the table. it wasn't successful at all. all were not up to what they expected. so me and senior atiqa re-tied everything again. we tied and then take out. in case the ma'ams aren't happy with it and we got to re-tied all over again. then after lunch break we were still tying. tie until hands got blister and it's really so pain. then went up the canteen to do some physical work. shall not continue already. i'm tired, very tired.